I'm still here!!

Is it really November 24th!!  Well I actually did loose 3 pounds!! Finally got over my long long plateau!! I was so happy to see the scale actually moving I could have had a party! 

 

On Thanksgiving I ran my half marathon!  Before I start this post I will warn you it's probably not for the weak of stomach! My ankle is still bugging me so I took some Ibuprofen.  We started rather early, to be honest it was pitch black we had to wear a head lamp so we could see. But the weather perfect, no wind nothing!  So off we went!  I only ate one spoon full of peanut butter which I guess wasn't enough. so the Ibuprofen upset my stomach.  So for the first several miles that was bugging me.  We actually were going a pretty good pace for us!  Then we turned around and my side started hurting to much water!! UGH!  Then about mile 8 my feet!! OH MY FEET.  I could feel the blisters being made.  I really felt like I was running on needles.  I just kept saying in my head, "I'm never doing this again just push it through!"  over and over and over again!  So much pain.  Around mile 10 I was so done.  Mile 12 we could see the darn finish line and it never came.  FINALLY FINISHED!!!  I seriously just sat on the ground.  Which yes I know is the worst thing you can do, but my feet hurt so bad!!  When I got home I took off my shoes and counted the damage 12 HUGE blisters!  The whole ball of both feet one huge blister, in between toes blisters, on the heels, all around my heels of my feet.  Really my worst most painful run ever.  

 

Here comes the gross part, yes even grosser.  I still went black Friday shopping!!  No pain no game!!  And I love Black Friday!!  But here is the gross painful part has I was walking around the blisters would  POP!  The liquid oozing out, and the raw skin hurt so bad!  I really can't even wear tennis shoes at this point.  I'm planning on taking this week off from running I'm hoping by next Friday my feet will be healed up!  This week weight training! 

 

 

I stole this picture from Ejona, one of my running buddies and this is actually the run from the week before.  I think Monta took a picture of us this week.  But I wasn't has happy to say the least! 

 

Oh Well gives me a excuse to Pig Out for Thanksgiving which I have done so!!

New month!

 Sept. 2012

 Nov. 2012

Yes, I know, the white shirt is very unflattering, but it lets me see just how much work I've done, and still need to do.  Lot's to go, but I'm feeling encouraged.  It just takes so long to lose it.  I was looking through all my Biggest Winner pictures though, and I'm determined to get back to where I was.  I lost 1.2 pounds this week.  That is good for Halloween week I suppose, just still frustrating considering I spend at least 1 hour at the gym every day.  I really want to control myself during the holidays.  I still want to enjoy yummy food, but if I can get down even 5 more pounds before Christmas that would be great.  I'd actually love to get down at least 1 more by Christmas, but that might be a little too ambitious. 

Holidays!

Holidays have begun!!  Which I love but I also love eating!!  Halloween candy in my home from last Friday till who knows when, and why did people only give out good yummy chocolate??  Why not the fake stuff that I have no problem turning down?????  We are almost out.  But then Friday we had a girls night favorites party and again went home with more chocolate See's chocolate can you really turn it out down! 


But I did run 10miles this Saturday so between the 10 miles and the chocolate I maintained.


I also started a new goal.  Workout every day for 31 days except for Sunday, I'm on day 6 and going strong.  My Uncle got put in the hospital and I'm trying to visit him everyday, so I think someone will either be going late or very early to workout. 

New weigh in

So I think I've decided that I have a low numbers week, then a big numbers week, alternating each week.  This week I lost 3.4 pounds!! WAHOO!!  I really did work hard this week.  I'm doing 6 miles on Fridays for the next couple weeks, and it was hard on Friday.  Harder than the week before - but I did improve my time by about a minute.  I ran 6.2 miles and walked till I got to 7 miles.  One bad thing about running more miles is the time.  I was at the gym for so long.  And even though my kids love the daycare there I don't really want to spend that long at the gym on Fridays.  BUT....it's working. 
Then yesterday hit.  I was going to try to wait until Sunday for my eat day, but Jerry had way too much fun buying Halloween candy, and it was just too tempting.  So I ate, and ate, and ate.  And got sick.  I was going to be so good today.  And I was until about 7, but then my resolve got weak.  Even though I got sick yesterday I got amnesia and "needed" more sugar.  Crazy girl.  I'll have to work hard this next week - physically, and with my will, turning away from the Halloween candy.

The Change!

Something happened this weekend.  I wasn't really ready for nor know if I am really happy about it either!! 


FIRST- We ran yesterday so no running today, so sleep in YAHOO!!  But all day I WANTED to run.  Like I needed it, it was so weird.  A good thing but I really just wanted to enjoy my day!!


SECOND-  YUMMY Halloween candy, I was so looking forward to digging through my kids bags!  I really was, dig all the chocolate out and eat it!  Well two mini chocolates later, I'm setting here sick on the couch.... 

I know this something I should be happy about, my body is no longer craving it.  But just weird when your minds is one way but your body is craving another. 


Weight wise maintained which I really would like the scale to change but I did go down a shirt and pants size.

We ran our 8 miles on Friday.  We left early and we are trying to run the path we will be doing on Thanksgiving.  But when you run along this street it is always the worst when it comes to weather.  So the sun no shade and the wind no hiding from it.  So we started after 2 miles running against the wind it was so strong.  We watched the trees going the opposite direction.  Our ears hurt so badly.  We headed down a street just to try to avoid some of the wind.  As soon as we turned it was like a switch we turned off the wind seemed like nothing.  I am usually okay until I hit the new miles. Not sure if that makes sense like last week good til 6 but that last mile to 7 hurt.  This week the first 7 okay the last mile wanted to die.  This next week we bump it up to 10miles!  YEEEEKK!  The last 2 miles are going to hurt. 

Upping the miles!

Well, after totally pigging out for my birthday last weekend I worked SO hard all week.  I even upped my miles - 3 Monday, 2 Tuesday, 4 Wednesday, and 6 Friday!  I was totally dreading the run on Friday, especially because my knee has been hurting a bit too.  And 6 miles on a treadmill is so boring.  I think my ultimate limit on a treadmill will be 7 because I survived - probably only because of an interesting show I was watching, but still, much more fun to run outside on that high of miles.  So after all that work, and eating good all week I lost a total of.... wait for it..  .4 pounds.  Yeah, not even 1/2 a pound.  Very frustrating.  But I'm going to try to stay positive and assume that I'm just building muscle??  I am using our 1/2 marathon training schedule because I like having a schedule tell me what I need to run, if I just run what I "feel" like doing, I'd hardly do anything.  So I have about 5 more weeks of long runs being 6 miles.  After that we'll see if I dare up it to 7.  I don't really have a race in mind, or one that is around.  And by the time I get to the 1/2 marathon on the schedule it will be the end of December and freezing.  Not sure what I'll do then, maybe just keep my long runs at 6 miles?  I'll see.

7 miles!

Today we did our 7miles we are getting there slowly but surely.  I have to say this run sucked!  My feet hurt, my ankle hurt, my knee hurt, hot, tired and just not in the mood!  YUP it was one of those runs where you are like WHY???!!  And what do we get to look forward to 8 miles next week!  YEAH! It is October 20th and still so hot, we were dying today.  We even had to stop and run into a store because all three of us were totally out of water.  Usually I come eat, take a shower and I'm good to go.  Not today I have dragged all day, it was a rough run. 

 

 

As for weight loss I lost a pound this week!  I'm okay with that.  I need to push things up again.  I'm not being bad, but I've kind of just got in a routine and I need to change it up again.  Hopefully that will help get off some more weight!  I really want to be down another 6lbs before I run the half marathon. 

 

I did find a 12 min workout of Pinterest, I did it on Tuesday with my strength training. My bottom hurt till Friday.

Birthday Weigh in

I weighed in the morning before my b-day and was pleasantly surprised to see that I'd lost 3.6 pounds!!  I'll take it.  Especially since last week I worked hard and only lost 1 pound. 
I'm encouraged because today I was able to wear a shirt that I bought in the summer, but it shrunk the first time I washed it, so I haven't been able to wear it since July.  Yay!  It fits, and even a little loose.  This starts the tough time of year though, when I really have to watch myself because there is such delicious food everywhere.  I finally met my first benchmark goal weight, now onto the next one.  The weight I was when I got pregnant - which was Dec. so I'd put on some from my low.  Hopefully I'll get there before Christmas. 
I did eat ice cream last night, but didn't go over my calories, and today I'm going all out.  Enjoying my birthday to the fullest.  Who knows how many pieces of ice cream cake I'll eat!!

Weigh In

Well another week of 0!  But really not to upset.  I have been kind of easy going on the diet lately.  Not really being bad but not perfect.  I have notice my pants are getting looser which is nice. We ran 6 miles today, including doing Temple Hill backwards.  Still having to tape my ankle all up.  It doesn't bug me to bad while I run, but I don't push it, even at the end I usually try to speed it up.  I'm not ready to chance it.  Today we made a few detours to avoid gravel.  It's not flat so it bugs my ankle.  I'm getting there slowly but surely and on my way to 13.1 miles!

New week check in

I was a little bummed today as well.  I lost 1 pound, and I shouldn't be bummed about that, because it's still a loss.  But I was a tiny bit less yesterday morning, and ate great all day, and ran 5 miles, but weighed a bit more this morning:(  Oh well.  I guess next week maybe I'll lose more.  I am SO CLOSE to my first benchmark goal.  I was there yesterday morning, I think that's why I'm more bummed than normal about it.  It could be that I ate pie like, Monday, Tuesday, and Wed. for dessert - but I was still way below my calories for the day - when I include exercise.  Oh, well it was delicious, and I couldn't just let it go to waste in my fridge. haha.  I'll be at my goal by my birthday!!  Then onto the next goal. 

Another check in.

I wasn't very excited to report today.  I just maintained.  But this morning I woke up youtubed a video on taping my ankle.  And was hoping that I could maybe go 2 miles without dying or such pain I wanted to die.  I even planned the route so about 1.5 miles into it we went by my house. So I could bail!!  (Really I did)  We we started and I was like, my ankle doesn't hurt!!  We passed my house!  We ran 4 miles!!  Yahoo!!  I really could not be happier.  Now on our road to the half marathon.  We are going to have to add 2 miles every Saturday in order to do the Turkey Trot.  So 6 miles next week! 

Pictures

I even dug out the first photos

Sept. 2012

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Oct 2012

 

The first picture

 

 

 

 

Sept 2012

 

Oct 2012

 

I have been trying to wear the above pants for awhile now.  And about a month ago I got them on, if breathing wasn't a option they would okay.  And this morning put them on and they fit!  Even comfy and was able to put my cell phone and car keys in my pockets!

 

A new goal Thanksgiving Gary's siblings are coming down.  Which is about 8 weeks my goal is 10lbs. 

 

Also I hit was of goals a few weeks ago so I finally got my contacts! 

October Pictures

 Sept. 2012

 Oct. 2012

Yes, I totally realize the white shirt is totally unflattering, but I was wearing it under another shirt that was pretty loose, and I wanted to be able to see the damage.  Believe me, I'd never wear the shirt alone in public...yet.  You can't see much of a difference, but I've lost weight this month.  Truly, most of the weight loss has probably been in my boobs, since I stopped nursing this month. haha.  This week I lost 3.6 pounds!!!  I'll take it!! 
Today was "Harvest Day" for our family - AKA Pig out night!  I guess it's good it was on a fast Sunday.  I hate to think of how many calories I would have eaten if I added a breakfast and lunch today.  I went WAY over my calories, but ohh, was it good!  Back at it again tomorrow!!  I'm SOOO close to my first benchmark goal, I can taste it!  I'm hoping to reach it by Saturday.  Wish me luck.

Two Weeks Down

Two weeks down my ankle is still swollen, and the bruising goes up to about the middle of my shin.  The bruising probably brings me the worst pain.  But really much better.  Next week I'm going to attempt to the exercise bike.  But I am taking it slow I don't want to do more damage or slow down the recovery any longer then it is already taking. 

As for weigh in I lost the 3 pounds I gained last week PLUS another 3 pounds!!  So 6 pounds I'll take it!  Other then my calories went down on my fitnesspal again.

Weigh in

I had a pretty good week.  Even after a visit from Jerry's brother last weekend, and eating a little too much with him here, I still managed to lose 2.2 pounds.  I'm seriously loving the My Fitness Pal app.  I just need to keep up on it daily, because it is something that really works for me.  In a way I've found it gives me more freedom.  Even while his brother was here, we had a cookout.  Normally I would have declared it a freeday and gone to town eating everything.  I put everything in the app before eating, so I could see the damage beforehand.  I was able to eat a hamburger and potato chips and still not go over my calories for the day.  I do know that not all calories are created the same, and I wouldn't eat like that always.  BUT it helped me to see that I can eat out a bit - watching portions and extras, and still lose weight.  I ran 4 miles the last two Fridays.  Yesterday it was so hard for some reason - but I did it.  Next week I up it to 5 miles.  I shouldn't be scared, but I am.  I'll do it, it just might be kinda slow.

One week down

Had Katelynn take a picture before she was off to school.  Both sides of the foot are still bruised up.  But I am able to hobble around on it. 

 

I tried to take it easy this week.  Gary took over cleaning, cooking and laundry this week.  But still really with 4 kids I think writing this blog alone.  Dallin has changed Maylee channel 3 times, Stole her chair, unplugged half dozen things around the house and She has locked herself once again in the playroom!

 

Next week my plan is to walk the kids to school and start strength training.  We will see if it hurts I stop don't want to slow down recovery.

 

Has for weigh in I did gain 3lbs.   I am disappointed but I guess I should be happy it is only that.  I have not worked out.  I have also ate more this week so I can take the Ibuprofen without hurting my stomach. 

 

 

 

Hiking trip!

We changed up our hike and ended up doing one over by Lake Mead not as long so we would not be gone has long. Well due to the rain the trail was kind of washed away. So we ended up a hour off the trail on the way up to the top! We finally saw others heads we ran to trail and went up the correct way the rest of the way. I realized running 4 miles does not mean you are ready to go up a mountain I was so tired! But we made it!

 We made it yeah!!  So has we went down I told Marlo we are staying on the trail no matter what.  Down the hill was nothing it was nice.  But of course I fell!  I'm not sure if my ankle gave out, tripped or what!  But I was hoping I just twisted my ankle. But within in minutes it was the size of baseball.  We still had a mile left to go.  So I had to finish it off.  We made it out and of course I drove so then I had to drive everyone home!  Finally HOME SWEET HOME!

 

My ankle is sprained on crutches, no weight allowed on it! :/  Saturday night it really looked like a baseball on the side of my foot.  Sunday the swelling went down, today the swelling continues to go down and I am nice and purple!! 

 

I am scared to death about gaining 500lbs!   I already gained a few.  

Slow and steady right??

I did lose this week.  About 1.7 pounds.  That's good, but in my heart of hearts I was wishing for at least 2.  However I did eat a big juicy hamburger and chips last night.  But I still didn't go over my calories yesterday which is good.  Hopefully next week will be a little bigger number.  We have Jerry's brother staying with us this weekend, so I'm indulging a bit, but still trying to stay within my calorie limit.

Weigh In

I maintained this week.  I'm good with that.  Not my greatest week.  We had stomach flu, ear infections, open house, swim team practice, grocery shopping, and I had work this week.  Tomorrow I'm going on a 18mile hike, I'm kind of excited!

Weigh in

I'm totally obsessed with My Fitness Pal.  I'm hoping by next week I will have lost even more than this week.  I only lost 1 1/2 pounds.  I do wish it had been more, but on the bright side I'm feeling a little better.  Clothes are fitting a bit better, and I'm feeling a bit more tight - but I don't think it's visible yet.  I'll keep going.  I am proud to say that today I even ate cake and ice cream, but didn't go over my calorie limit.  I did add the workout into the app, I still have 7 calories to spare.  haha.  I'm completely finishing nursing this week, so I'm hoping for a 3 lb weight loss this week.

Weigh In

This week was a little tough.  I think sometime I miss how it was last time I lost weight, and start to throw my party of 1 pity party.  I am not sure if it is aging by 2 years or if really is true that body chemistry really does totally change!


The one I really am missing the most.  Cheating before I cheated well Friday has soon has I stepped off the scale ate all day until Saturday night!  :)  Anything and everything.  Sunday- Tuesday would loose that weight and by Wednesday morning my body was ready loose more weight.  NOT so anymore.  Gary and I have went on the last few dates to Sweet Tomato.  Which is great but really....  On Monday we went to a barbecue and I had a rib it was good.  But really that was the only meal I ate all day and still had to go running that night hoping to get it off and that one rib took till Thursday to come off..  Lately I watch TV and everything, everything looks so YUMMY!!!  And I need to figure out something new for lunch.  Right now I drink a Protein Shake for breakfast and for lunch a Sandwich. (bread, mustard, lunch meat, bread)  I am so sick of sandwiches at this point.  I go shopping Monday I am going to Search for something.  And at dinner try to only have one plate.  We also now eat dinner at 3:30pm.  Early but gives my body well hopefully plenty of time to digest the food.

The other thing is myself.  Last time I was so excited for every pound and felt good about my weight loss.  This time I still look every time and count the flaws.  I really wish I could stop and just be happy. I went back and pulled pictures and really I look the same I did last time I was at this weight.  And with all the toning and weights I am doing I am probably even toner this time.  So I need really work on being happy for every pound. 


One thing that I am happy about is that Gary went back to work 2 weeks ago, and my fear was that I was going to find excuses to get off this diet.  I have found a schedule and it is working so hopefully it continues to work!  And I only go to the gym twice a week!  Don't worry not be lazy!

Monday-Gym cardio
Tuesday- Weight Training/ Toning At HOME!!
Wednesday- Gym Cardio
Thursday- Weight Training/ Toning At home!
Friday- 2 mile walk
Saturday-  RUN
Sunday- REST!!

I can't go to the gym till later, so when I go is when most people I guess go so it is packed.  I don't want to do weights in front of people!!  So I  bought two hand weights!  I go in a circle Legs, Arms, Abs, for about a hour started by myself and now I have 3 other girls coming over and leaving in pain!  (It's my goal)  I really push it I really like not having to go to the gym so I want to prove to myself it works.  It last for a little over a hour, hard at first trying to find that many exercises but yesterday we actually didn't even get to everything!  But I think if I had to go to the gym every time that late it would be hard and easy for me to find excuses.


So now weigh in I was actually kind of surprised I really was nervous this week Thursday morning I woke up still a pound over weigh in and really I was like just let me get to weigh in weight by tomorrow!!  But woke up this morning stood on the scale 400 times to make sure it was right and lost another 2 pounds! 

This week I think I am going to lower my calories right now I get 1400.  I rarely ever use them anyways but it's nice they are there I am going to go down to 1300.  Start my early morning Saturday runs!  Start tomorrow.  I have been going later.   And continue working on my Bottom and Mommy tummy!  (you'll see in a sec)

Pictures finally! And as you can see my butt and stomach still need a lot of work!!

 

My Fitness Pal

So I finally started using the My Fitness Pal app today.  It is awesome!  My favorite part is sanning the bar codes.  I downloaded the app months ago, but hadn't ever used it.  It's very interesting though.  I put in my goal, and wanted to lose 2 lbs per week.  (Actually I'd love to lose 15 pounds per week) I still didn't meet my calories.  I still have about 380 calories to go today.  I did input my workout, so that upped the calories I could eat.  Have I not been eating enough??  I don't know how that could be!  Here's my other question.  I went over my % of protein, but not carbohydrates or fat.   But I did go over on sugars - in carbohydrates.  So I need to eat 300+ more calories of fiber and fat.  What on earth do I eat?  And how did I go so over on protein??  I guess I did have a protein shake.  So I'm a little confused on that.  And I'm a little nervous to eat all the calories that I'm allotted (with my workout included)  Maybe it's just today.  Maybe tomorrow I won't feel so full.  I'm hoping this will help me with my eating and controlling my weight loss better.

Plantar Fasciitis Taping

Feel so bad for you Sarah, hope maybe you haven't tried this and hopefully it helps!!

The good, the bad, and the ugly

The GOOD:  I didn't gain any weight! I exercised everyday and pushed myself to the limit:)  It felt good I also ate really good this week.  We even had a party here Friday night and I didn't splurge too much.  Just a few potato chips and some soda - but it was Fresca, which is 0 carbs, 0 everything.

The BAD:  I didn't lose any weight either:( I even fasted today for the first time in SO LONG - since I got pregnant with Luke I guess.  Now, I know the reason for fasting is NOT to lose weight, but it's hard to resist weighing in right before you break your fast.  Yeah... no difference.  VERY depressing!!

The UGLY:  My feet are KILLING me!  I really need to get in to a doctor.  I did end up taking some ibuprofen yesterday and that did help a lot.  That's good, but I don't want to take ibuprofen everyday for the rest of my life.  I also don't want to have to get cortisone shots every few months for the rest of my life either:( 

So here are the new month pictures. Sorry, they are a bit fuzzy, they were taken with my phone, and I think Jerry was in a hurry. ha

Sept. 1st,

Angry

Today is my weigh in once again. And I'm angry that calorie counting works!! GRRR  I lost 6lbs this week!!  Not angry about!  This week I was really strict on working out and calorie counting.  Happy that I figured out I can continue this even when Gary is working!

Things I still need to work on is my MOMMY TUMMY!  It's not going any where my pants are all huge around my legs but my stomach still fit just fine.  I am going to google it today and see what exercises I can add to start taking that away. 

I found a new app last night Runtastic it's pretty cool I used it this morning.  It's a gps and it tells you how far you go and where you are going. 

So next week goal is waist line to shrink!  And loose 22 pounds wouldn't be terrible either! 

GRRR

Warning:   I'm very tired. 
Can anyone tell me why I voluntarily bust my butt at the gym, sweating and panting.  Walk around with sore muscles the next day.  Watch everything I eat - writing it all down, just to  maintain at the same weight - 50 pounds overweight!I know, it's only been a couple days, and I need to just chill.  It's just frustrating.  I won't give up, but it's irritating.  Why is it SO easy to gain 10 pounds, but takes forever to lose it???  GRRR!!!  Here's hoping that I can at least drop 1 pound by weigh in day.  2 days to go.

First week

1 week down.  I know - forever to go.  But I feel encouraged by the week.  Unfortunately weight loss takes time.  I was feeling so good about the work I did that I thought surely I'd be able to fit into a smaller size right?  Ha!  No chance.  But I won't give up.  I lost 7 pounds!!! Yay!  I'll take it!  Wish me luck on week 2!

Weigh In

I think this blog just might be bad luck!  I maintained this week.    I did go for a run this week, my first run all summer long.  It rained hard on Thursday all day.  So by night it was so cool.  I had to take advantage of it.  I was to lazy to go to the gym, I was going to run 1.5 miles I did mapmyrun and had a route.  But then as I ran, I just kept going! I nearly did 4 miles. And it felt good, no shin spilts, no knee pain, hill was nothing, it was just a good nice run!  School starts Monday wish me luck getting this family where they need to be!

3 down, 3 to go

I've been doing good for 3 days now, just three more workouts for the week.  I'm already feeling so much better, just getting rid of that vacation bloating helps.  The bloating weight is coming off too, so I'm almost back to where I hovered all summer.  I'm writing down everything that I eat, which is totally helping.  I was tempted to snitch some chocolate yesterday, but I knew I'd have to write it down and then I'd be upset with myself, so I didn't.  On my running days I've only run 1 mile, then I walk an extra mile on an incline - nothing close to Korina's incline - then I do the bike for about 15 min.  I've been so sore though, so it's doing something good! 

We are back!

Well what a summer!  And I still have a week!  I stopped blogging for awhile I just plateaued and was beyond frustrated. So going back to the beginning of June. 

Katelynn got baptized and I saw a picture of me and really I cried.  I was just mortified a year of working my butt off and UGH.  So depressing. 

So Gary's insurance covers weight specialist and I went.  I went three times, she showed me different tricks, calories to follow, and lots of test. So I was able to get over my plateau!!!

I have stuck to this all summer! 

Workout Wise

M,W, F-   Cardio-   Treadmill-  I have bad knees and running on a treadmill is not good for them.  So I walk at a very fast pace, and up the incline!  As soon has I get on it within the first 2 mins I am at a 15 incline, and I stay on that for 250 calories which usually takes 11 or 12 min.  Then incline 10 and I up my pace a few.  And stay on that for 10 mins.  Then 8 and again up the pace and then a 5 till I hit 500 calories.  I am pouring sweat, but happy I don't have to run!!  Then just the normal cool down.
                              

Then Arc Trainer and/or(mattering on my energy :P)  Elliptical  for 20 -30 mins again mattering on energy!

Then our gym has a ab center a whole bunch of machines in a circle that works different parts of your abs.


T, Th-  Free weights!  This is actually pretty fun to watch for the fact that we have no idea what we are doing so we usually bring the IPAD or printed sheets that tell us different exercises.  The guy do smirk at us as we are searching to find different workout.  But all we know off our heads is arms and I need to work way more then just my arms. 

Saturday-  I have to go by myself so I usually just do the treadmill again.  I am not brave enough to do weights alone. 

Sunday -REST!!

Eating Wise:
  1400 calories and I hate calorie counting but with myfitnesspal app I am doing it.  It is getting better and have lost quite a bit of weight since starting to get better with it. 

So this summer a few of my hates that are becoming loves

Coke- to diet Coke
Treadmill-  I hated the treadmill and now it's my favorite!
Calorie Counting-  still not my favorite, but figuring out I have no choice!


I have not started running yet and to be honest I DON'T want to, when I started this summer I set a goal and when I reach I have to start running again to switch things up and well to say the least after last week I am very close! UGH!!  I really want to hit this weight BUT don't want to run yet!!

This weeks goal is to hit where I have lost more weight then I need to loose!   My weigh in will be Friday and at the end of the month I will also post a picture! 

This time it's for real!

ok girls, I'm sick of being overweight.  Sick of looking at pictures of myself and being a little depressed with what I see.  Time to get serious.  The excuse of "I just had a baby" is getting old for me.  My baby is going to be 1 in less than a month.  My birthday is in just under 2 months, so I'm making big goals, and have to achieve them!  I'd like to be down at least 20 pounds by my birthday. 
I've been struggling with my workouts.  During the summer I didn't have access to my gym, but I went walking generally every day.  Surprisingly I maintained, for the most part, throughout the summer.  But I didn't do any weight training, and honestly - I'm still way too overweight to just be maintaining.  I need to lose it.  So I've been trying to decide what to do for my workouts.  My feet are really hurting, so I need to get some shots in my feet.  Easier said than done.  I've wondered if I need to just concentrate on walking until I get down a bit, then add the running.  But then I'm missing the strength training which I know is important, and it helps boost the metabolism as well, which makes the weight come off faster than cardio alone.  The issue I have with walking is, even though I am trying to walk at a quick pace, I don't get that "I've given it all I can" feeling when I'm done, like I do with running.  I like that feeling of knowing I've pushed it to the limit and there's no more to give.  When I walk, even though it is a great workout - and the health benefits are major, I could keep walking and walking all day if I needed.  Walking on an incline totally helps, it does push it to the limit, but I think I'd rather run.  So when I'm done I beat myself up thinking I could have done more.  So today at the gym I did 3 miles and ran about 1.25 of it.  It felt so good.  I've decided to start slowly, because I do need to get some weight off, and the heavier I am the more it hurts to run.  But I'm going to go back to the half marathon training schedule we used before. P.S. if anyone knows where to find the actual schedule we used, let me know.  I'm a sucker for familiarity.  I'm going to start with just running 1 - 2 miles of my workouts - like they have on the schedule, and walking maybe another mile when I've finished the required mileage, if it's only 1 or 2.  I'm also going to start adding strength training again on shorter days.  Within a few weeks I'll be running a lot more, but it's a good way to ease into it. 
I'm also going to get back onto Spark people  -or what's the new one you told me about, Korina?  I'm going to record my food again.  Even if no one but me checks this blog, I'm going to really try to keep up on it because it keeps me motivated. 
So, there you have it.  I'm going to do it!  I'll probably get around to posting a picture at the beginning of September.  Wish me luck(:

Aftermath of the vacation

 March 2012

 May 2012

This picture was actually taken a few days before our vacation, and sadly, I'm still several pounds away from that still.  We had a great time in Las Vegas, and it was so fun seeing you guys:)
I know me, and I know that when I'm on vacation I throw caution to the wind and eat, and eat, and eat.  I started out pretty good, but by the end I was eating too many desserts and just too much.  One positive note though is that I did exercise every day except Sunday.  I was hoping that would combat the weight gain a bit, but I still gained too much.  I also didn't do too hot this weekend.  Always looking for an excuse to eat - it was Jerry's last weekend here before leaving for his internship. 
So - as a side note... don't you hate it when you have a shirt you like, and wear often then get a picture taken in it and you can totally see your bra through it???  Oh, how embarrassing!  I guess it's time to buy a different colored bra:)

Hovering

Still here... I've been so frustrated, but I haven't given up. My weight has been hovering between 2 lbs for the last several weeks. Honestly daily it goes up, then down the next. I'm hoping I've just been gaining muscle - that's always my "go-to" excuse when I don't lose like I want.
I have started doing those green smoothies that you hear so much about. The ones with fruit and spinach. Believe it or not, SO GOOD!! I really like it.
I was also given a challenge. My sister in law, who had a baby 2 weeks before Luke, is going to run the Ragnar race this year - she hasn't run much since, and was going to be running 4 miles. I wanted to see if I could do it. It was hard, and it took a long time, but I did it. I'm going to try to run 4 miles at least 1x per week. Maybe I'll try to get to 5 miles before too long.

So, here are my new month pictures (the ones below) Little changes - taking forever - but hopefully little changes will add up to big ones.

March 2012

April 2012

15 pounds to go

Yes I am still here.  We went to Disneyland a few weeks ago when I was 16 pounds to go.  Then when I got back it took me till well this week to get back into gear.  I would start then the little excuse would come up and I would drop everything.  This week I feel like cross my fingers I finally have a schedule.  But I am nervous it is our Spring Break all next week which means Gary and the kids will be home.  Which means even though we are not leaving town, going crazy on vacation mode!! 

I have been eating a apple for Breakfast
lunch-Pitta Pizza (pitta bread, pizza sause, a little cheese and lean turkey oven at 400 for 5 mins!)
dinner-  Just watching my quantity. ( I am kind of counting calories in my head then making dinner around that)

So far this week I have workout every day but Wed. But in my offense Wed was beyond crazy and by the time the day ended, I felt  like I ran a marathon! 

And the best news of the week.  I am a COKE/PEPSI girl, but hate diet coke the taste of it nasty!  This last week I found PEPSI NEXT!!  It is good I can do it! 

Frustration

Yes, I'm frustrated. Why does it have to be so hard?? Why does food have to taste so good? I printed up the training schedule for the half marathon that we followed, wondered if that is going to be the only way I'll get in shape - but I don't have the time to run that far every Saturday. I also want to save my feet a little bit. I took my waist measurements the other day because I was making a skirt, and found measurements I'd taken on Nov. 1st. Only 2" smaller!!! WHAT??!! That was less than 2 months after I'd had Luke and now it's 4 1/2 months later and I've only lost 2 inches. I had lost more in my lower belly area, but still. So. far. to. go.
So yes, I'm frustrated. It doesn't help that I chose to write this on a day when I'm extremely exhausted anyway - sorry for the depressing update.
BUT I'm not giving up. I can't! I don't want to be this size, or bigger forever.

Vacations, vacations

It is so hard to eat good while you're on vacation. And I didn't! I am proud of myself for exercising a couple of the days we were at my sister's. And we did a ton of walking while in New York, but I ate a LOT of junk! Once we came home I did exercise and tried to eat good, but I was still mentally on vacation since Jerry was still home. I also had some sick kids so I wasn't able to get to the gym, so I just worked out at home. Tomorrow I'm going back to the gym. I feel like I workout harder at the gym because I'm not so rushed. Wish me luck.

16 pounds to go!

Had to do the weigh in today! I lost 4pounds and actually measured my waist on Monday and I lost one inch!

10 weeks!

Sarah will be here in 10 weeks! Give me new motivation to get my butt in gear! I am trying to be more realistic, it is hard for me. I want to wake up and be where I was and it is not happening. I keep doing this drastic diets which only last for a week, because there is no way I can live by it. I keep trying to talk myself into doing it how I did it before, but then I don't know what happens and I end up on some crash diet. So I have am trying to talk myself into that losing 1 to 2 pounds a week is okay. I changed my trigger and my goal is to loose 20pounds in 10weeks. That is only 2 pounds a week. And I think/hope the first 10 will come off pretty easy leaving the second 10 that will hopefully at least come off??? Wish me luck it is getting very frustrating.

March is here!

March is already here! Wow, that came fast. I didn't quite make my goal of losing 25 lbs, but I did lose 16.5 which is a better place than I was. This week I only lost .5 lb. Not good. But I'm going to try to stay positive because I did exercise every day and ate well, so I'm hoping it was a losing inches/building muscle kind of a week. But I'm really hoping to lose 3.5 lbs this week. I know... ambitious. But at least it will average out to 2 lbs per week. We are going on vacation on Thurs so that will make it even harder - but possible.

My new goal is to lose 20 lbs by the time we come to Vegas in May. I still won't be at my ultimate goal - but much closer than I am now.

Mar. 2012

Dec. 2011

Mar. 2012

Dec. 2011

Checkin' in

I forgot to check in last week. Oops. I actually maintained the first week. And lost 2 pounds this week. Slowly, ever so slowly.... But I guess it's in the right direction

UGG :(

December 2011

February 2012

Depressing. Yes, I want to puke. I know I'm being dramatic. But I just have so far to go. I guess I have been feeling positive about how hard I've been working. I've been going to the gym daily (well 6 days a week) for 3 1/2 weeks now. And really watching what I eat. I had been thinking I'd lost more and looked a little better till I put the two pictures together. I guess I've really only lost the weight I put on between these months (Christmas) Ok, ok I know, it hasn't even been a whole month, and I won't give up. It's just hard. I guess on the positive side the pants I am wearing in the first picture are maternity pants, because the ones I have on in the second pic were WAY too tight for a picture. So I guess there have been little changes - just not enough.
I'm probably being overly dramatic too because my weigh in this morning was not good. I totally pigged out over the weekend, and I'm still up several pounds. I busted my butt at the gym today - but I always try to.
So here's another catch - Sydney's birthday is tomorrow. Do I eat her birthday cake tomorrow? The night before weigh in? Or wait till Friday? Or pass altogether?
Well, thanks for letting me whine and complain. Here's to hoping that I will see a marked difference in my March picture. And hopefully within this month I can get to the STARTING weight that I was when we started 2 years ago.

Weigh in

I'd planned to get my new month picture yesterday to put on this post - but didn't get to it. Hopefully today or tomorrow.
Korina, I totally understand - my daily weigh ins fluctuated so much too. Tues. am I was -1 lb, but Wed I was +1.5 from last Friday's weight. So bizarre!!
I was happy that by my weigh in on Friday I lost 4 lbs!!! Yay! I still have so far to go, but I'm happy with the 4. I still constantly worry about my milk. I think I'm getting enough calories - but I hate counting calories, so I don't. I have a rough estimate per meal of what I'm getting.
Last night I probably ate enough calories for a whole day in one meal. Jerry and I went on a date to Five Guys. I've never been there before, but heard how great it is. Yeah, bacon cheeseburger and fries plus lemonade have a lot of calories I'm sure. But it was my free meal, so I'm not going to stress it. The problem is that I have a hard time on Sundays anyway - plus it's the super bowl. Not that I even watch it, but I sit around with Jerry watching the commercials and eating. And of course you have to have yummy snacks while you're watching the super bowl - even though I don't watch. :) Wish me luck.

Warning Depressing Post!

Let me just tell you how the last few weeks have gone with the scale:

Monday: Wake up 1 or two pounds up from Weigh in (normal)
Tuesday: Back to weigh in :)
Wednesday: Really 5lbs up from weigh in!! Really 3 weeks in a row
Thursday: Back to weigh in
Friday: Wake up and loose a few pounds

This week the dieting was hard and depressing. I am scared to eat anything, I hate feeling that way, but every time I eat anything from a orange to a pizza(which I have not had in forever) I feel so super guilty! I always feel "I ate to much", "Ugh", "Why did I eat that" and so on. It really is annoying! Sometimes I really do wish I just didn't even care or I was naturally skinny and I could eat whatever I want.

Wednesday and Thursday are my hardest days waking up being 5 pounds heavier is never a way you want to start off the day. And then Thursday I stress all day about Friday's weigh in.

Today weigh in I lost another 2lbs! I should be happy, but I just want to wake up and be were I was before Dallin.

This time the weight loss is a lot harder, the first time I was able to celebrate every pound. For the fact I did not know where I could get, but this time I just want to jump to where I was. I know impossible....

On the positive note in 2 pounds I will have lost more weight then I need to loose! :) There's upside to this diet after all!

weigh in

I weighed in this morning and lost 2.5 pounds! Still was hoping for more, but I will take it. A loss is a loss. I was feeling pretty good about my 8 lb loss for the competition with my in-laws, but we totally lost. My brother-in-law and his wife killed us all with losing 6.5% - holy cow! That's a lot. So I'm stepping up my game next week. Ok, actually - I don't really know what I'll do differently because I'm doing what I should be, and it is coming off, just slower than I'd hoped. Dieting and nursing are a tricky balance. Already I'm feeling like it's effecting my milk, but I'm also not being drastic, just smart. So anyway, I'm talking in circles. Hopefully I can lose more and it will start coming off faster. I'll try to get a new pic up here on Feb. 1st.

One Month

This week started off as a very frustrating depressing week. I was working my butt of and my weight never moved! So upsetting, I was working so hard and has of Wednesday still the exact same thing. Finally yesterday a a few pounds came and weighed this morning I lost 5pounds!! That puts me at 19 pounds this month. I will take it. My brother is getting married Feb 18th, and I would really like to loose another 11 pounds by then. Probably not a realistic goal, but I will aim for it!

So Monta took this picture of me at the beginning of January.

So last night Kira and I went to the gym and I made her take a picture of me, I did not pose exactly the same. My legs are extended in the top pictures not the bottom one. But you can see my muffin top is shirking.

Gary and I are going on a date tonight, so I am a little nervous, about gaining it all back in one bite. I am going to try this weekend not to be bad, one meal is okay all weekend not so good! Dallin is napping and I started back to work this week, so while he sleeps I work!

Question...

What's the point of exercising and eating right if you don't lose weight? I know.. being healthy, feel better about yourself.. blah, blah, blah. Just kidding. I know those things are important, but it's so frustrating when I have SO much to lose for it to be so hard to lose. Sure wasn't hard to gain it:) I really tried to do good over the weekend, and have been good so far this week too, and I've lost half a pound since Friday. Yes, a loss is a loss. Hopefully my body will kick in gear and I'll lose 10 pounds in 2 days. haha. I'll keep at it though, because I know if I don't I'll just gain. And on the positive side, even though I haven't really lost a lot of pounds yet, my pants seem to fit a bit better this morning than they did last week. So I'll keep it up.

Weigh in

I'm going to start doing my weigh ins on Friday from now on because it's the day we weigh in for our little competition with Jerry's brothers too. I am happy to report that I lost 4 pounds!! Yay! I have so far to go, and honestly I was hoping to lose a little more this week because I did really good on my exercising and eating - even on my anniversary! BUT... that being said, I will gladly take the 4 pounds and continue to press forward:)

Stupid Scale!

Stupid Scale! I gained a pound this week...... Not very happy about this. There were a lot of reasons and excuses I have for this weeks gain. BUT I GAINED!! ;(....

Weigh In

Yes, I'm a few days late at getting this on here, but it's not super great news to report anyway. I lost 1 1/2 pounds. Not too great. Part of the reason I haven't gotten on is because Luke is so extremely needy. That boy doesn't sleep - ever. At night he is in bed with me because it is the only way to get him to go to sleep. I've made him "cry it out" and he falls asleep, but not for long. He's up in about 45 min. screaming again. I feel like I'm feeding him all night long. If he's asleep and I move or get up to go potty he wakes up automatically. He doesn't sleep well during the day either. He hardly naps. The last couple days it has been a TOTAL of about 2 hours of sleep during the day that he gets and then he doesn't go to bed till 10:30 or 11:30 again at night. Yes, I'm going a little crazy. Because he's so tired he just cries all day if I'm not holding him. Right now he's in his exersaucer. He was happy for the first 2 min., now he is screaming so loud at me. His cough/wheezing/etc is finally going away but we are still on lots of medicines, including 2 breathing treatments each day of albuterol and pulmicort. (So 4 breathing treatments each day) for the next MONTH! I feel like I'm being sucked dry literally and figuratively. So because I have to just hold him all day, I end up just puttering around the house all day waiting for him to fall asleep and just munching on whatever food is around. I know - excuses, excuses. But because we finally have healthy children I'll be able to go to the gym today and at least get 30 min. away from children.

So I'm hoping I'll get an extra boost of motivation here soon. Just like Korina is doing the "Thin it to win it" competition, Jerry's brothers are doing a competition for the next 3 months too. We will be competing as couples. We will weigh in every two weeks and the winner gets 1/2 of the money put in for the session. The other half goes to the pot. The overall winning couple at the end of the 3 months gets the entire pot. Jerry is onboard and excited, so that helps me too.

Weigh In!

I lost another 3.8 pounds this week! I'll take it! My goal is to loose 4.2 pounds by the end of January and that will 20lbs in one month!!!!!

I am excited about my weight loss. But I almost feel like I am cheating before the New Years I was literally working 5 times harder and loosing NOTHING!! Now that I am able to watch my calories and not having to worry about my milk dropping I am really able to watch my calories. And my hormones are adjusting.

I did not win on Thin it to Win it this week. SOMEONE lost 15lbs!! WOWZERS!

Mid-week check in

Not Good!
With 3 sick kids, including one that doesn't sleep I've not done too well this week so far. But, not giving up yet!

Stress

I was very lucky over Christmas break and didn't gain anything even though I was terrible.  I think my biggest challenge right now is overcoming stress.  I cannot expect to maintain or even lose weight if I continue to let life give me stress.  So, I am eliminating anything and everyone who causes it.  The only thing I can't do that to is my current life situation which we have no real control over.  If I can limit it to that only then I think I'll be fine.  So far I am still the same weight I was in November....with a growing belly.

I'm kind of here

Well I am here and everywhere I think! Its been awhile. I kind of considered stopping blogging on here. But at this point I am going to do everything ( i will get more into this) I can to get to my goal. So so since the last post.

I ran the Vegas Half Marathon! I wish I could tell you the time. But that is a mystery! A few days they posted it took me way longer then I thought I had ran it in. But I was like whatever they have timing chips. Then a week later I got pictures of "me!" and it was an old man! I'm not a old man! Then the week before Christmas I got a email that said it looks like we registered you with the wrong number, please email us your time and info! Even though it was crazy, I enjoyed it my favorite race by far! I did loose two toenails from it! But I finished and did not walk one step! I did time it myself but the corrals were not organized so we started running before we even hit the starting line. So I had to start it way early so I would not get trampled! And at the end it was raining so I was just trying to get to my foil jacket on.

And I maintained and maintained and maintained really the story of my life I felt like I could eat the world and not gain a pound or work my butt off and still maintain!


For Christmas I got a Planet Fitness gym Membership!!! I am super excited and really love it. But as usual did not matter what I did still maintained! :? After Christmas my mom came in town which means lots of food and food. So I put a few pounds on.

New Years day I was on my way home from the hotel visiting my Mom when Monta calls and ask if I want to be in their "Thin it to Win it" Competition I really need the motivation so I said sure! So this week I have made a lot of changes.

1. Really watched my calories, I think I have skin milk I can pump 10ounces and Dallin still has still have a bottle after I feed him my milk. So I decided since I have to feed him bottles anyways I am okay with my milk dropping. Since I have been having to give him so many bottles anyways.

2. Gym went everyday except for Wednesday and Wednesday i worked out with Monta. I met with the personal trainer. He is supposed to get me a workout schedule soon.

3. NO SODA NO SUGAR DRINKS

4. WATER!! ( I even Got a new water bottle)

5. No eating after 7pm

6. Also Monta gave me this spray and it reminds me of a Listerine strip. So after you spray this stuff in your mouth it taste all pepperminting so you don't want to eat anything. Kind of like right after you brush your teeth. So I eat dinner finish then I spray that way I will not munch!

7. I also joined this thin it to win it we all put 5 dollars in and at the end of the week. The person with lost the most BMI. That way its fair for the skinny people! :P gets all the money honey!! So I am competitive and I like money! We have been rooting each other on also!

8. I also readjusted my little trigger to my goal weight instead of pre pregnancy weight.

So after a week! We met up this morning and all weighed. WE ALL LOST!! And guess who won that's right ME!! I lost 12lbs!! I have never lost that much weight ever!


I really think a lot of it has to do with cutting the calories. Meeting with the trainer he was asking me everything I have been doing and eating. And has soon has I told him I was breastfeeding he said, "That's why." He said either people loose weight from breastfeeding or the total opposite where some people's bodies hold in calories to make sure they will have enough to make the milk. Which it ends up holding more calories then it needs. I realize my milk will and is drying up and I have mixed feelings about this. Sometimes I don't want to stop and other times I am so ready to be Korina again. Then I worry what if I stop and still don't loose the weight then what will I do! That's my excuse! :P Plus Dallin is my last I don't want to regret it , can't make up for it again. Mixed feelings about this whole thing!

So for a monthly picture here you go! GROSS!! Look at that muffin top!

For next week, I would love to continue to loose, and really hope it will keep coming off I have maintained long enough!!

Success or Failure?

Yes, you guessed it.... Started fresh...AGAIN! The last couple days in Dec. I was eating so much junk that every morning I felt so yucky and vowed to never eat any more chocolate. But within a couple hours somehow I was eating chocolate again. I was happy and sad to be starting a new year. I know, that sounds crazy. Sad because I knew I couldn't just eat my heart out anymore and it was going to be time to be accountable for my eating. Happy because I really need to get in control again of my eating and exercising and start feeling better about myself.

I weighed in on Sunday morning and was, of course, depressed because I gained even more than expected. I made it till 5:30 before giving in and eating any chocolate. I'm going to look at this as a success, that I made it that far before giving in :)

We went on a little trip to Chicago Tues-Wed. I knew this could be very detrimental at the beginning of my new start, but was determined to do my best. I did work out at the hotel on Tues. and also went swimming with the kids that night. I wasn't super strict on my eating, but I did eat better with no major unhealthy snacks. That is so hard during car rides. Once we got home there were still lots of Oreos left in the package. (That is so rare, which tells me I must be the one to usually eat most of the Oreos) :( Anyway, the temptation was too great and I gave in and ate an Oreo. Here is the success part - I stopped at 1. Usually once I break and eat something "bad" I go crazy and eat anything else I can find. So normally I would have finished off all the Oreos and gone for the ice cream in the freezer as well. So instead of beating myself up I'm going to pat myself on the back for stopping at 1.

So - New Year, New Goals. I have my ultimate goal that I want to get to. But I'm going to start with a couple short term goals so that I can hopefully celebrate a little success along the way. I'm going to be on here more. If I don't write very often you can probably assume that I'm not doing well. When I do my mid week and weekly check in it keeps me more on track. I NEED you guys:) My first short term goal is to fit my pants (The ones that AREN'T maternity pants) without muffin top by Jerry's birthday weekend. That is 3 weeks from starting. My next short term goal is to lose 25 lbs by the weekend that Jerry finishes finals for this module. The first weekend in March. It is ambitious I know. But I have so. much. to. lose!!! I did lose 4 lbs after the first day of eating good and exercising this week. That tells you just how bad I was over Christmas. I will hopefully get the new month pic posted soon so I have my point of reference to go from when I'm smokin' hot!! :)