Checkin' in

I forgot to check in last week. Oops. I actually maintained the first week. And lost 2 pounds this week. Slowly, ever so slowly.... But I guess it's in the right direction

UGG :(

December 2011

February 2012

Depressing. Yes, I want to puke. I know I'm being dramatic. But I just have so far to go. I guess I have been feeling positive about how hard I've been working. I've been going to the gym daily (well 6 days a week) for 3 1/2 weeks now. And really watching what I eat. I had been thinking I'd lost more and looked a little better till I put the two pictures together. I guess I've really only lost the weight I put on between these months (Christmas) Ok, ok I know, it hasn't even been a whole month, and I won't give up. It's just hard. I guess on the positive side the pants I am wearing in the first picture are maternity pants, because the ones I have on in the second pic were WAY too tight for a picture. So I guess there have been little changes - just not enough.
I'm probably being overly dramatic too because my weigh in this morning was not good. I totally pigged out over the weekend, and I'm still up several pounds. I busted my butt at the gym today - but I always try to.
So here's another catch - Sydney's birthday is tomorrow. Do I eat her birthday cake tomorrow? The night before weigh in? Or wait till Friday? Or pass altogether?
Well, thanks for letting me whine and complain. Here's to hoping that I will see a marked difference in my March picture. And hopefully within this month I can get to the STARTING weight that I was when we started 2 years ago.

Weigh in

I'd planned to get my new month picture yesterday to put on this post - but didn't get to it. Hopefully today or tomorrow.
Korina, I totally understand - my daily weigh ins fluctuated so much too. Tues. am I was -1 lb, but Wed I was +1.5 from last Friday's weight. So bizarre!!
I was happy that by my weigh in on Friday I lost 4 lbs!!! Yay! I still have so far to go, but I'm happy with the 4. I still constantly worry about my milk. I think I'm getting enough calories - but I hate counting calories, so I don't. I have a rough estimate per meal of what I'm getting.
Last night I probably ate enough calories for a whole day in one meal. Jerry and I went on a date to Five Guys. I've never been there before, but heard how great it is. Yeah, bacon cheeseburger and fries plus lemonade have a lot of calories I'm sure. But it was my free meal, so I'm not going to stress it. The problem is that I have a hard time on Sundays anyway - plus it's the super bowl. Not that I even watch it, but I sit around with Jerry watching the commercials and eating. And of course you have to have yummy snacks while you're watching the super bowl - even though I don't watch. :) Wish me luck.

Warning Depressing Post!

Let me just tell you how the last few weeks have gone with the scale:

Monday: Wake up 1 or two pounds up from Weigh in (normal)
Tuesday: Back to weigh in :)
Wednesday: Really 5lbs up from weigh in!! Really 3 weeks in a row
Thursday: Back to weigh in
Friday: Wake up and loose a few pounds

This week the dieting was hard and depressing. I am scared to eat anything, I hate feeling that way, but every time I eat anything from a orange to a pizza(which I have not had in forever) I feel so super guilty! I always feel "I ate to much", "Ugh", "Why did I eat that" and so on. It really is annoying! Sometimes I really do wish I just didn't even care or I was naturally skinny and I could eat whatever I want.

Wednesday and Thursday are my hardest days waking up being 5 pounds heavier is never a way you want to start off the day. And then Thursday I stress all day about Friday's weigh in.

Today weigh in I lost another 2lbs! I should be happy, but I just want to wake up and be were I was before Dallin.

This time the weight loss is a lot harder, the first time I was able to celebrate every pound. For the fact I did not know where I could get, but this time I just want to jump to where I was. I know impossible....

On the positive note in 2 pounds I will have lost more weight then I need to loose! :) There's upside to this diet after all!