Hate it!

Gary went back to work this week. He has to leave by 6am which means I have to wake up at 4:30am to work out!! I HATE IT!! It is so hard to wake up that early. Literally this morning I really could of cried I wanted to stay in my nice warm bed. I really wish I could just be a naturally skinny girl. I hate waking up!! I really do! And I am so tired! So knowing how much I hate getting up at 4:30 just guess what time I am getting up tomorrow you guessed 4AM!!! WHAT THE FREAK AM I THINKING????? I really want a skinny pill anything just to make me skinny without having to wake before the sun comes up!! That is my vent of the day!!

Weigh In

I decided to weigh in today! Tonight I am going to the Drive In with the kids tonight. So much fun!! :/ So I am sleeping in tomorrow! And will work out on Saturday. I lost 5.5lbs! I still have a lot to work on but at least I got some weight off. This weeks goal is WATER!! I do not drink enough period. It is a 112 degree how do I not drink water. Who knows? I am also going to start doing my long run on Saturday again. Gary went back to work, which means I do not get has much time has before to workout. And I am having to wake up even earlier!! YUCK!! And do my abs when I get home to save time.

Oh I'm so in trouble!

I cannot express how excited I am for school to start.  I NEED routine!  It was impossible to avoid fast food since the last time I posted.  I went to Disneyland then to my sister's house.  Almost 9 hours on the road requires a couple stops for food.  That was a long drive and she only lives 6 hours away.

So, I've started my Zumba.  I can make it the whole 45 minutes, but Skyler is having trouble.  Every once in a while I'll look back and he's taking a rest in the chair behind me.  I'll give him a break because our bed is doing a number on his back right now.  Its doing a number on mine too...not to mention my injuries in both shoulders.  I swear I will never heal.  Every time I start to feel better I do something to mess it up again.  I have been doing stretches that are helping, but they still ache all the time.  When I carry things I get a sharp stabbing pain in the joint...not good.

Working out is not the issue right now.  My issue is EATING!  I feel like every time I get my favorite "bad" foods out of the house they sneak their way back in.  Its a conspiracy!  This is why I don't like living with people.  I can't control what comes in the house.  Now, I know I don't have to touch it.  But do you know how hard it is to see a pack of oreos on the counter every day and NOT touch it???

Its okay though, I have a plan.  I just hope I can resist the never-ending temptation that is in this house.  No pain, no gain, RIGHT!

The Perfect Week

This week I decided no cheating. Monday I woke up feeling like a car had ran me over. My allergies were killing me. That night even though I was feeling like crap I went with Monta and Ejona on a 2.4 mile walk. Tuesday woke up at 4:30am went and ran 3 miles. Wednesday woke up at 4:30am we walked to Sonic and got some Ice Water with lime wedges still in and out of neighborhoods about 3.39 miles. Where I must have wore the wrong socks I got a blister on both hills of my feet. Still on Thursday we went out and ran 5miles. Where both my blisters popped! I can barely walk................. But I was determined!!! And every morning also doing 100abs. No fast food all week (which is amazing for me), stayed away from the sweets. Even last night I did Yoga just to make sure this morning weigh in went my way. I could not resist last night I weighed myself it said I lost 5lbs! I was like sweet and it was at night so by morning it would even be more!! SO HAPPY! I woke up this morning pumped did not want the added weight. Stepped on the scale and you guessed gained .04lbs!! HOW?????


Just to add to my upset this morning Gary has also been trying to loose weight but with the move the last two weeks he has done nothing. GUESS what he lost 5lbs!............... UGH!!

I am not going to lie a little frustrated to say the least.

36 weeks

36 Weeks

Last year - August 2010

Pictures can be so brutal. But here's the damage of 36 weeks. I also included a motivation picture from last August. Amazing the difference a year can make huh. So I'm hoping that by next August I will have at least lost all the baby weight!!

Remeber me!!??

I know its been forever!! We have been moving and packing all summer long. We are finally in and turn are keys in on Monday!! YEAH!! I have been waking up at 4:30am either feeding Dallin or pumping then head to Monta's at 5am and workout the past two weeks! Sound like a way to enjoy your summer waking up at 4:30am 5 days a week! YAHOO!! And I am terrible about going to bed on time. But lost 1.4lbs this week! Only way to much to go!! I also have finally learned how to use my Nike watch. I enjoy watching it has I run and if I am close to finishing a mile I go just a little bit farther!!

I know I would loose more if I watched my calories more closely. But here is my thinking/excuses/reasons (whatever you want to call it.) Remember Dallin is my first to breastfeed. I looked it up on Sparkpeople I am allowed 1300-1500 calories a day to loose weight then I put I am breastfeeding it goes up to 2500 calories!! That is a TON! Then I put in how much I am working out and it goes up even more to 2800 (WOW)! I want to cut my calories but scared my milk will go down. Right now I have enough milk that I do not have to substitute formula. (I do give him formula occasionally when we are out and I don't feel comfortable feeding him. Or if I am out and there is no milk thawed then Gary will use formula) Back on Topic- I am worried if I cut down calories I will run out of milk! And what do I do test it? I really do battle with this badly. I want so badly to be back where I was a year ago. It really bugs me. I don't feel good about how I look, it is depressing.

Overloaded

I feel bad because I have not been good at posting, but I haven't been good at much of anything lately.  The motivation I had after having Riley quickly disapated with all of the unraveling events that followed his birth.  I was fighting postpardum depression and in the midst of it I gained back about half my baby weight.  I am officially heavier than I have ever been in my entire life and it makes me SICK!  I surprised my kids with a quick trip to Disneyland this week and it really showed me where I'm at physically.  I am not doing well... not as bad as I could be but its just not good.  I don't know if it is because I've had 5 kids or what but my back nearly gave out on me by the end of the day both days we were there.  My lower back was a big problem this pregnancy and the big problem continues.  I also have another problem I'm gonna throw out there because I can't go to a doctor right now and maybe you guys might have some insight.  As you know I'm breastfeeding, so I don't have a period.  Don't know if I'm ovulating or anything...  I doubt it is related to ovulating, but every time I exercise I end up spotting.  I thought it was caused by other things, but I quit going on walks for about 2 weeks and it stopped.  I went to Disneyland, was walking around all day long and it started up again so now I know for sure it is exercise.  It is really frustrating me.  I'm worried something is wrong, but I can't do anything about it because I don't have insurance... or a job... or money to pay for an appointment.

Whatever the case may be I'm just gonna keep exercising.  I have another Disney trip planned and already paid for in November and I don't want to feel like I did with this one.  Last week my mom bought Zumba fitness... the one on the infomercials!!  I'm starting that tomorrow and I am so excited about it.  That is exercise I can handle. =)

Small goal this week.... NO FAST FOOD!!  it's a start anyway. =)

4 weeks!!

Holy Cow! I had the shocking realization last night that it was only 4 weeks till I have my baby! In a way the time has gone SO quickly because I've been so busy with other things, but weight wise, I feel like I've been pregnant and huge forever! And yes, I'm huge. I always get so large, but I think this one I might be even bigger than the others because I seem to be carrying very "forward" if that makes sense. He's all out there, not to mention the weight I've gained in my butt to balance out so I don't topple over. Oh, and my chin, neck, and cheeks, arms, etc... :)
I will try to get a picture taken over the weekend to add. BUT - on the positive side, I am already trying to get motivated to get back into shape. One great thing about our neighborhood is that it is a quiet country road, with really no thru traffic. The kids LOVE being able to ride their bikes regularly. Because I don't know the neighbors well enough yet, and I don't want Hayden to get lost just riding around on his bike, whenever he wants to ride farther than the "3 houses down" limit we go on a walk around the block till we can get more familiar with it. That boy is going to get me in shape more than anything else. It's probably only 1/2 mile we go, but we go several times a day, and at this point it wears me out. So I'm hoping after the baby comes we'll continue to go on walks as long as the weather permits. That's something I never really had to worry about in Vegas. Then the other day I went exploring in the car looking for a good running path. Just across the street from our neighborhood is a very quiet country road that goes for about 3 miles, with a total of about 4 homes on the whole stretch. So I'm planning to go running there once I get back into it.
I will definitely need you guys' support to get back, even if it's long distance. I saw a pic of myself the other day, and all I can say is YIKES! Sadly I can see myself taking till October to heal, then justifying in my mind that it's practically the holiday season so I'll just enjoy and wait till January to start, but I know I can do a lot of damage in 2 1/2 months, or I can start out slowly and combat the holiday eating a little bit. I still want to do a 5K in January at the latest, or ideally I'd like to at least walk a 5 K when Korina does the Half Marathon in Dec. That way, I'll be there in spirit and I'll probably sweat and hurt as bad doing a 5K as you will with 13.1 miles, that's how out of shape I feel. So there's my plans - remind me of them!!