UGG :(

December 2011

February 2012

Depressing. Yes, I want to puke. I know I'm being dramatic. But I just have so far to go. I guess I have been feeling positive about how hard I've been working. I've been going to the gym daily (well 6 days a week) for 3 1/2 weeks now. And really watching what I eat. I had been thinking I'd lost more and looked a little better till I put the two pictures together. I guess I've really only lost the weight I put on between these months (Christmas) Ok, ok I know, it hasn't even been a whole month, and I won't give up. It's just hard. I guess on the positive side the pants I am wearing in the first picture are maternity pants, because the ones I have on in the second pic were WAY too tight for a picture. So I guess there have been little changes - just not enough.
I'm probably being overly dramatic too because my weigh in this morning was not good. I totally pigged out over the weekend, and I'm still up several pounds. I busted my butt at the gym today - but I always try to.
So here's another catch - Sydney's birthday is tomorrow. Do I eat her birthday cake tomorrow? The night before weigh in? Or wait till Friday? Or pass altogether?
Well, thanks for letting me whine and complain. Here's to hoping that I will see a marked difference in my March picture. And hopefully within this month I can get to the STARTING weight that I was when we started 2 years ago.

Weigh in

I'd planned to get my new month picture yesterday to put on this post - but didn't get to it. Hopefully today or tomorrow.
Korina, I totally understand - my daily weigh ins fluctuated so much too. Tues. am I was -1 lb, but Wed I was +1.5 from last Friday's weight. So bizarre!!
I was happy that by my weigh in on Friday I lost 4 lbs!!! Yay! I still have so far to go, but I'm happy with the 4. I still constantly worry about my milk. I think I'm getting enough calories - but I hate counting calories, so I don't. I have a rough estimate per meal of what I'm getting.
Last night I probably ate enough calories for a whole day in one meal. Jerry and I went on a date to Five Guys. I've never been there before, but heard how great it is. Yeah, bacon cheeseburger and fries plus lemonade have a lot of calories I'm sure. But it was my free meal, so I'm not going to stress it. The problem is that I have a hard time on Sundays anyway - plus it's the super bowl. Not that I even watch it, but I sit around with Jerry watching the commercials and eating. And of course you have to have yummy snacks while you're watching the super bowl - even though I don't watch. :) Wish me luck.

Warning Depressing Post!

Let me just tell you how the last few weeks have gone with the scale:

Monday: Wake up 1 or two pounds up from Weigh in (normal)
Tuesday: Back to weigh in :)
Wednesday: Really 5lbs up from weigh in!! Really 3 weeks in a row
Thursday: Back to weigh in
Friday: Wake up and loose a few pounds

This week the dieting was hard and depressing. I am scared to eat anything, I hate feeling that way, but every time I eat anything from a orange to a pizza(which I have not had in forever) I feel so super guilty! I always feel "I ate to much", "Ugh", "Why did I eat that" and so on. It really is annoying! Sometimes I really do wish I just didn't even care or I was naturally skinny and I could eat whatever I want.

Wednesday and Thursday are my hardest days waking up being 5 pounds heavier is never a way you want to start off the day. And then Thursday I stress all day about Friday's weigh in.

Today weigh in I lost another 2lbs! I should be happy, but I just want to wake up and be were I was before Dallin.

This time the weight loss is a lot harder, the first time I was able to celebrate every pound. For the fact I did not know where I could get, but this time I just want to jump to where I was. I know impossible....

On the positive note in 2 pounds I will have lost more weight then I need to loose! :) There's upside to this diet after all!

weigh in

I weighed in this morning and lost 2.5 pounds! Still was hoping for more, but I will take it. A loss is a loss. I was feeling pretty good about my 8 lb loss for the competition with my in-laws, but we totally lost. My brother-in-law and his wife killed us all with losing 6.5% - holy cow! That's a lot. So I'm stepping up my game next week. Ok, actually - I don't really know what I'll do differently because I'm doing what I should be, and it is coming off, just slower than I'd hoped. Dieting and nursing are a tricky balance. Already I'm feeling like it's effecting my milk, but I'm also not being drastic, just smart. So anyway, I'm talking in circles. Hopefully I can lose more and it will start coming off faster. I'll try to get a new pic up here on Feb. 1st.

One Month

This week started off as a very frustrating depressing week. I was working my butt of and my weight never moved! So upsetting, I was working so hard and has of Wednesday still the exact same thing. Finally yesterday a a few pounds came and weighed this morning I lost 5pounds!! That puts me at 19 pounds this month. I will take it. My brother is getting married Feb 18th, and I would really like to loose another 11 pounds by then. Probably not a realistic goal, but I will aim for it!

So Monta took this picture of me at the beginning of January.

So last night Kira and I went to the gym and I made her take a picture of me, I did not pose exactly the same. My legs are extended in the top pictures not the bottom one. But you can see my muffin top is shirking.

Gary and I are going on a date tonight, so I am a little nervous, about gaining it all back in one bite. I am going to try this weekend not to be bad, one meal is okay all weekend not so good! Dallin is napping and I started back to work this week, so while he sleeps I work!

Question...

What's the point of exercising and eating right if you don't lose weight? I know.. being healthy, feel better about yourself.. blah, blah, blah. Just kidding. I know those things are important, but it's so frustrating when I have SO much to lose for it to be so hard to lose. Sure wasn't hard to gain it:) I really tried to do good over the weekend, and have been good so far this week too, and I've lost half a pound since Friday. Yes, a loss is a loss. Hopefully my body will kick in gear and I'll lose 10 pounds in 2 days. haha. I'll keep at it though, because I know if I don't I'll just gain. And on the positive side, even though I haven't really lost a lot of pounds yet, my pants seem to fit a bit better this morning than they did last week. So I'll keep it up.

Weigh in

I'm going to start doing my weigh ins on Friday from now on because it's the day we weigh in for our little competition with Jerry's brothers too. I am happy to report that I lost 4 pounds!! Yay! I have so far to go, and honestly I was hoping to lose a little more this week because I did really good on my exercising and eating - even on my anniversary! BUT... that being said, I will gladly take the 4 pounds and continue to press forward:)