One of those days....

I swear something has to give!!! Do you ever have a day when you're so tired of trying you just want to give up? That is me this week. I have cried, I have tried, I have stressed, I have worried, I have gotten angry....the funny thing is that it was only partly about weight loss. I cannot seem to catch a break in ANY facet of my life. Its just trial after trial, stress after stress, and one whiny, disobediant kid after another.

Anyway, I was watching The Doctors this week and one of the shows was about weight gain and stress. Oh my goodness!! That show described my life! That was the day I broke down and cried. Stress causes a hormone imbalance that WILL prevent you from losing weight or even cause you to gain. We all knew this, right?? I did anyway. Well, it seems my life has been nothing but stressful since the end of January so I've decided in the coming months things are going to give because I've had it.

Again, no weightloss this week. I am still in my 3-5 lbs fluctuation. Although, this week I sort of gave in to my emotions and gave up...except the exercising. I couldn't give that up because it helps to tame my temper. I have had such a bad temper lately that my mom came over to figure out what my problem is. She left me with some vitamins and made sure I took them. She's been calling me every morning to make sure I continue taking them too. I must be really bad, right? Once I do take them and they kick in, I can tell they help.

Sometimes I wish I could be happy no matter what like you guys and Maria. It seems no matter what crosses you guys you are able to control your emotions and get through it and still be happy. Unfortunately that is not me. I have always worn my heart on my sleeve and somehow I've got to figure out how to be happy no matter what happens. Afterall, what is life without trials. Growth comes in all forms and mine just happens to be in my waistline....LOL...that was a joke. =) Really though, I do believe this weightloss thing is a trial for me. I have to learn to love myself no matter what size I am. I love me, I just don't love what I see in the mirror and that mind frame needs to change.

Nothing like a little set back

So this is my worst weigh in yet, but at the same time it could be much worse. I gained 5 pounds. I could be really because on some free days I'll gain 5 - 6 pounds in just one day, but I have been eating bad ALL WEEK LONG, so I know it's going to be harder to lose this 5 pounds then it is to lose the free day gain. I have been exercising this week to combat the eating a bit, but I've not exercised as much as I regularly do. I ran 2 1/2 miles Monday, 3 1/2 Wednesday, and 4 miles yesterday. I'm planning to run 5 miles today. My legs feel so tired, probably because they are. I don't sleep as much as I should while I'm on vacation, and at the beginning of the week they were still sore from the race. But now they should be recovered. I almost don't want to move my ticker because I'm on vacation and maybe it'll give me the motivation I need to lose these 5 pounds this week. Wish me luck!

50lbs!

That is right I lost 2lbs!!! Which puts me at 5olbs!! Wish me luck that I may not go crazy while on vacation!!

Vacation = diet homicide

So this week has NOT been a good eating week at all. I did go running 2 miles on Monday morning. It was hard because I was still sore from the race on Saturday. I started out eating good, but unfortunately it didn't last long enough. Every summer we have a party with all my sisters sharing our "favorite things" - it's a rip off from Oprah. Well, we HAVE to have one of our favorite meals for the meal, then usually we all share one of our favorite candies/ snacks, and we give one to everyone. How do you NOT eat all those favorite things?? We had fondue for dinner. It's not too overly unhealthy, but when you eat way beyond that full feeling, it is very unhealthy.
Tuesday we went boating out at the lake. I really did try to pack some healthy food, but when you're hanging out on the beach potato chips, cookies, and sour patch kids are just more appealing than apples. I went waterskiing, and that's about all the exercise I got for the day.
So I know it's already midweek, but I started out good today. Ran 3 1/2 miles, so far I've eaten good. I've gotta keep it up. I haven't even dared step on the scale. Hopefully by weigh in I can undo some of the damage done since Saturday.

Mid Week Check In for Kim!

Can I just say I LOVE FOOD!! This week has been great for exercise, HORRIBLE for eating. Monday...well I don't know what happened Monday. I had fully intended on cooking a yummy healthy dinner, but it didn't turn out that way. The boys had been really helpful and were begging to go to Cici's for dinner, so we did. I probably consumed enough calories for the week in that meal and not because I went crazy, because I didn't. I just had one too many of those cinnamon rolls...or whatever they are.

Tuesday Skyler got off work at 10:15 and it is Kids Eat Free at Lonestar. I've been craving Lonestar so we had some money left over in the wallet and decided to go. It really is Kids Eat Free...not eat free with an entree. All 4 of my kids ate FREE.

Today is going to be a better day. I had a long...well, maybe not long, but I had a discussion with Skyler last night. I asked him how he's feeling about how he looks. I'm not gonna get into details, but I was able to get very candid with him and I think I've FINALLY got him on board. Time will tell. All it took was a reminder that we're going to Disneyland in November and I don't think he wants to look bad in those pictures so he better start now. See, he loves scrapbooking Disneyland photos...it is what gets him from trip to trip. He also likes to feel good about how he looks in the pictures. =)

So, the plan we have created is this:

I cannot get up early on Monday Wednesday and Friday to workout because when I do I become SUPER CRANKY WOMAN because I don't get a nap. I am going to attempt working out while babysitting. Then at night after dinner Skyler and I are going to go for a walk. Skyler takes one stride for ever two of mine so technically I'll be jogging and he'll be walking fast. We'll probably take the boys out with us and go to the park or something. They need the exercise too.

Tuesday and Thursday I'm going to try and wake up early. I think it will be fine because my kids WILL let me take a nap. They prefer a nice mom over a mean one. LOL . Matthew is so sweet. When he sees I'm tired he says, "Mom if you want to lay down I'll play with Teagan and Logan so you can rest" Oh how nice it is to have children who are old enough to help!

So, if I can stay away from restuarants for the rest of the week I may not gain anything. We'll see on Friday, won't we!

Zumba make you crazy!!

I guess this would be my midweek check in. Since I am weighing in on Thursday. And I have that song "Zumba make you crazy?" stuck in my head. YUP just that one verse I may go nuts!! Well I was really hoping to loose two pounds this week and be at 50lbs loss. And to be honest I have no idea how I am doing or how much weight!! I am fluctuating between 4lbs up 2 pounds from weigh in one minute the next minute down 2lbs it just goes back and forth drives me crazy!! So we will see come Thursday morning, I am hoping that morning the scale likes me!!! Well I have only done one workout today so I better go and get another one in before bed, hopefully I don't fall asleep............

Weigh in and half marathon report

So, I've been having a great time on vacation, and I'm late to write about my weigh in. I didn't lose any weight, but I didn't gain any either. I was hoping to lose one pound, but I'm actually pretty happy with the results because I gained SO much the weekend before. So at least I was able to lose all the weight from the weekend.
Saturday morning I ran the Farmington half marathon. It was great! Hard, but great! I improved my time by 10 minutes from the Hurricane half. I was definitely not as nervous going into this one, but still the morning of the race I had butterflies in my tummy and was excited and nervous.
Now that the race is done I don't have anything I'm training for, so part of me is a little scared. It helps me to have something I'm training for so that I can't slack off. It's just too hot for races in Las Vegas.
To prove to myself that I was not "done" I ran this morning. It was hard. I only went two miles, but I'm so glad I did. I had a party with my sisters today and TOTALLY pigged out. NOT GOOD! I can't eat this way all week. I've got to be strict with my eating.